"In order to know thyself, one must learn how to be themselves"…
Out of all the people you've ever known or been apart of, is there anyone you've spent more time with and live in closer proximity to than your own self?
Over the past few months I've been away from home and found a comfortable amount of time to be alone, giving me the opportunity to closely listen in to how I truly operate without the external influence of others expectations.
By getting intermit with my flaws or what I judge to be my flaws, I've noticed that at times I become a door mat to other people, I hide my voice, my opinion and generally let them walk right over. I also have come to realise that at times I try to prove myself relentlessly, my worth, my value (either to them or myself) on an on going basis...and apparently I view this as a flaw.
Maybe we are all truly judgemental beings. Whether its the food you we're about to eat, the sound of someones voice, the dress sense of your mum or your ability to complete a task, you will judge that experience both before, during and after and how you judge whether "positively" or "negatively" is-or could be dependant on how you judge yourself and the expectations you have of others, based off of your own expectations you have of yourself…. or at least perceive to… (did that make sense? at least i judge it to).
And is it this perception and judgement of an individual, noticed in myself and others, to really be the hurdle from preventing true expression and from forming closer relationships with others and ourselves?..
I truly believe that by "loosing your mind and coming to your senses", you can create the silence needed to really engage and listen into not only your physical bodies needs, but at times more importantly, how your mind perceives and values who you are.
Over the past few months I've been away from home and found a comfortable amount of time to be alone, giving me the opportunity to closely listen in to how I truly operate without the external influence of others expectations.
By getting intermit with my flaws or what I judge to be my flaws, I've noticed that at times I become a door mat to other people, I hide my voice, my opinion and generally let them walk right over. I also have come to realise that at times I try to prove myself relentlessly, my worth, my value (either to them or myself) on an on going basis...and apparently I view this as a flaw.
Maybe we are all truly judgemental beings. Whether its the food you we're about to eat, the sound of someones voice, the dress sense of your mum or your ability to complete a task, you will judge that experience both before, during and after and how you judge whether "positively" or "negatively" is-or could be dependant on how you judge yourself and the expectations you have of others, based off of your own expectations you have of yourself…. or at least perceive to… (did that make sense? at least i judge it to).
And is it this perception and judgement of an individual, noticed in myself and others, to really be the hurdle from preventing true expression and from forming closer relationships with others and ourselves?..
I truly believe that by "loosing your mind and coming to your senses", you can create the silence needed to really engage and listen into not only your physical bodies needs, but at times more importantly, how your mind perceives and values who you are.
Go and experience it, rather than just going and viewing it!
What ever you are doing, thinking or deciding..remember one thing; to question whether it is coming from you or someone else?
You may be surprised that the real noise could be your mother or father, from the first time they gave you the advise, order, discipline or criticism, and that will be stuck with you. You must begin to decide if that noise truly resonates with you and is that voice of "self"-judgement really your voice..?
Maybe next time you feel the need to let out some thought vomit that could be triggering to others...try to tie a feeling that you're having with that thought and what that reflects about what you don't like in your own life, or what you want in your life... This way you can connect your thoughts to your feelings instead of just letting thoughts distract you from your heart…
Maybe next time you feel the need to let out some thought vomit that could be triggering to others...try to tie a feeling that you're having with that thought and what that reflects about what you don't like in your own life, or what you want in your life... This way you can connect your thoughts to your feelings instead of just letting thoughts distract you from your heart…
I can empathize with this as sometimes I am an expert at letting my mind bypass my feelings. The fear of failure, success, or intimacy... the ego feeds on shame and fear, so you looking at this as a game to be rude could be your ego challenging you… I challenge you to challenge your ego that next time you feel the need to be rude to also put your heart on a platter and admit the insecurities within you that your rudeness is reflecting…
Also a big trick is not to judge your judgments, but let them be a window to your challenges.
Just some thoughts.
Be Wise.
Beatle.
This briefly written expo of my thoughts have been inspired by the teachings of JP Sears, the numerous hours of listening to Daniel Eiseman and my Dad.
Thank you.
This briefly written expo of my thoughts have been inspired by the teachings of JP Sears, the numerous hours of listening to Daniel Eiseman and my Dad.
Thank you.
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